Main Truth: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” Psalms 139:23
That’s it! I’ve had it! I’m tired of these garden boxes. The last couple years, I’ve tried planting plants, and sewing seeds. Each year, things grew that either got diseased or infested with algae or bugs. This summer, I ripped out all the ugly harvest and left it as a breeding ground of sticks and weeds.
I felt defeated and duped. They made it look so easy. These magazines, these YouTube videos, these green thumb gardeners flooding their Instagram feeds with envious pics. I concluded, I have a black thumb and that all plants that survive in my home are the fake ones.
But this fall, I had the urge to try again. But this time, I decided to concentrate on the environment of the soil and dirt. As I began, I cleaned out the overgrown weeds and removed the top soil, I hit the original dirt we used to fill the boxes. It was hard. It was unmanageable. “Well, this could be why water wasn’t really absorbing,” I thought. It seemed the water only saturated the top soil, but didn’t get down to the bottom. That’s probably why the soil was so gross.
So I doused the hard dirt with water. Then started tilling it up. Wow...nothing but roots from the redwood trees next to the garden. Also, lots of debris and rocks. I tilled, I cleaned, I tilled, I removed. I excavated this hard soil. Little by little, the dirt became softer, the roots, weeds and rocks were easier to remove.
Then it hit. This is how God tills our hearts. We can try our best to work on top of our hardened hearts, trying to cover up old roots of bitterness, anger, and hurt with religious soil. But, as we do our best to cultivate a healthy spiritual life, the Living Water of Truth can’t seep deep down into the marrow of our soul. We’re left with an unhealthy view of life. Where the enemy attacks and lies begin to infest an already fragile heart.
In Psalm 139, David declares that God knows our hearts better than we do and He can heal the garden of our souls. “O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me...Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” Psalms 139:1, 23.
When we allow Christ to remove the weeds and strongholds that have binded us into exhaustion and till up our hearts and remove old roots, rocks and debris - the soil of our hearts becomes softer, easier to manage and easy to receive the Spirit’s guidance. Through this process, we become a new creation. No longer a “black thumb” unable to grow a healthy garden. But a heart ready to absorb His Word to produce healthy fruits of His Spirit.
“The Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!” Galatians 5:22-23
Original Post written on Nov 18, 2018 by: Samantha DeLeon Samantha has grown up going to church, but didn't encounter Jesus until her mid-thirties. Jesus met her on a road of anxiety and over commitment, turning her faith from a spectator sport to a team player on the field. Samantha's mission is to encourage women like herself, "the overachiever-need to help everyone-over committed-never full" life into the abundant life Christ promises and trust Him through life's ups and downs. Samantha is a California native, married to her high school sweetheart and they have 3 school-aged children