How God Cast Out My Worry

Main Truth: “For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will fill you with joy.” Proverbs‬ ‭2:10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

A couple days ago my five year old son had to have his appendix removed. Everyone has said, “oh how scary.” But, I have to be honest with you, I wasn’t scared or worried as much as I thought I would’ve been.  Actually, I had an unexplainable peace. This is completely against my nature...I am Chicken Little incarnate. I worry about so many things. However, in this particular event, His peace covered me and trumped my worry and fears.

The day before my son’s surgery, he seemed like an ordinary, active five year old. But towards the evening, he complained about a stomach ache. Like any good mom, I just blamed it on the junk food and lack of water and made him eat fiber rich foods and drink a ton of water. Those helped him for a bit, but then he still complained, bending over in pain. This wasn’t normal for him. My husband said we should probably bring him in. I almost said to wait until the next day because it was then 7:30pm and this meant a trip to the ER and I’ll have to pay $100 for them to tell me he needs to poop.

My husband rarely worries, so this was a sign for me to check my pride and take him.

After hours of waiting, and of course my son now saying his tummy doesn’t hurt anymore, the doctor checked him out and she ordered some tests. The X-rays and ultrasound showed nothing, but his white blood count was slightly high. She waffled between getting him a CT scan or scheduling him for a checkup with his primary doctor. She was worried about exposing him to radiation at such a young age, especially since it could be nothing. She then asked for my opinion. Now normally, I would have said no because my worry about cancer would trump anything… especially since I assumed it was constipation. But I wasn’t my normal self, I said I trusted her judgement. She waffled a bit more, then decided it would be best to do a CT scan.

As we patiently waited for the CT scan results, I started to doubt the need for it. You see, by this time my son seemed fine. He wasn’t complaining, he said he wasn’t in any pain; but something kept me there. After waiting for what seemed like an eternity, the CT scan results came back -- it was indeed appendicitis. Wait...What? 

The results surprised the doctor and definitely shocked me. With the operating rooms full my son was scheduled for surgery first thing the following morning.  My normal self would have been a worried mess, but I felt no worry, I felt no fear. I felt this divine peace. Even through pre-op and through his surgery, there was this peace that came over me. And this peace kept being reassured with all the sweet nurses that cared for him.  One of the nurses was a personal friend of mine who had a shift that night! Talk about God using people to be His instruments!

Last week, I wrote a post about how worry has always been my feeble attempt to try and control what is out of my control. How I see myself now in light of spending time in His word allows me to let go, and “Let God.” My faith is constantly growing and my willingness to “let go” richly blessed what could have been a horrible experience but instead, was bathed in His peace.

“But the Lord Yahweh is always faithful to place you on a firm foundation and guard you from the Evil One. We have complete confidence in the Lord concerning you and we are sure that you are doing and will continue to do what we have told you. Now may the Lord move your hearts into a greater understanding of God’s pure love for you and into Christ’s steadfast endurance.”

‭‭2 Thessalonians‬ ‭3:3-5‬ ‭TPT‬‬

Update on my son: he is healing great, with lots of couch time and power rangers.

Post Written By: Sam DeLeon

Sam has grown up going to church, but didn't encounter Jesus until her mid-thirties.  Jesus met her on a road of anxiety and over commitment, turning her faith from a spectator sport to a team player on the field.  Sam’s mission is to encourage women like herself, "the overachiever-need to help everyone-over committed-never full" life into the abundant life Christ promises and trust Him through life's ups and downs.  Sam is a California native, is married to her high school sweetheart and they have three school aged children.